My name is Geraldine,
I live in Cork City, I have three almost fully grown boys and I’m married to a Kerry
man.
Throughout my teenage
years I hankered to experience the magic of America. Twenty one and broke, I
did the next best thing; I worked as a nanny in New York and Boston. After
two years, I returned to the centre of the universe, Cork, to register for
college. A year later, I followed my
boyfriend to London, ‘for the summer.’ I
stayed ten years. Boyfriend listed me as his ‘spouse’ on his visa
application to China. I said yes. China fell through but we married
anyway. In 1997, after the birth of our second son we moved
to Singapore where I had son number three.
We moved to Hong Kong in 2002 and returned to Cork in 2006.
Homesickness dogged
my 22 years abroad. From New York and
Boston, I wrote 24 letters home a week. In
London, I typed the letters but made copies. Singapore, I posted and faxed
the letters home. In Hong Kong, with the magic of internet, I sat every morning
at my keyboard emailing family and friends around the world, even those who
lived next door.
During the SARS
crisis in Hong Kong 2002, my husband gifted me a 12 week creative writing
workshop with Jane Camens. Jane introduced us to ‘Morning Pages’ from The
Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron.
Jane explained that the practice of writing everyday not only clears the
sludge from your brain, it is meditative as well. The penny dropped. All those letters I wrote were
therapy. I wasn’t writing them for the benefit of the reader: I was doing
it for me.
I write because it
cures me of the blues. I am an extrovert and optimist. All
who know me will describe a friendly, talkative, small woman who never shuts
up. Yet every morning, I wake and think,
“Oh fuck, another day.” I roll out of bed, shove on my imitation Ugg
boots, slither down the stairs, fill the kettle, haul out my Foolscap
notebook wedged between Delia Smith and Rachel Allen, sit at the kitchen table,
sip my way through two pints of warm water and write my pages.
Pure drudgery but always, without fail, by the time I get to the third page, something in my brain shifts. The sludge starts to loosen in the pipes, the walls separating me from the rest of world melt away and I feel lighter. My resilience and sense of well-being is restored.
Then the magic happens. Somewhere in the middle of the toxic spew that’s now on the page, a gem appears. It might only be a phrase or a sentence or an idea but it sparkles all the same. I lift it out, polish it up, sharpen its edges and work on its shape until the piece emerges - small, precious and almost perfect. Like me.
Pure drudgery but always, without fail, by the time I get to the third page, something in my brain shifts. The sludge starts to loosen in the pipes, the walls separating me from the rest of world melt away and I feel lighter. My resilience and sense of well-being is restored.
Then the magic happens. Somewhere in the middle of the toxic spew that’s now on the page, a gem appears. It might only be a phrase or a sentence or an idea but it sparkles all the same. I lift it out, polish it up, sharpen its edges and work on its shape until the piece emerges - small, precious and almost perfect. Like me.
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